Nightmares

 Its common knowledge among Malaysians (Thats where I come from) the teenagers approaching the age of 18 will be selected fro National Service. In short NS or PLKN in its native language. Most people pray for it but 85% of the population would like to differ with this. Including me. As you can guess yes I was one of the "Lucky" ones to get selected. This was not what I planned *Sobs*

Now Im not trying to be a ninny here or anything.Fine so what if I got selected. If I have to then it just cant be helped. But to be honest I was planning to work part time at my favourite boutique store while waiting my results after graduation. It could pay for my expenses for half the year.

I have accepted that If this is what God has laid for me theres no escaping. Though it doesnt mean Im happy with it. I am not. fullstop. And it doesnt help when "Holy " people start posting on the net about them "Feeling Blessed"  as to them not being selected for the Training.
Like EXCUSE YOU.  Are you trying to imply that Only those who arent selected are blessed? So what about the ones who are ? Are you calling us the cursed?

The news about this was already bad enough with SPM Trials coming in just a weeks time. And what with all my depressing Teenage dramatic life. I certainly did not need people like that making me feel worse than shit than I already am.

NOTE: If you wish to rejoice on your good luck go ahead. I am not there to stop you or be a sour grape. Just please. Be happy without uttering useless bullcraps that coincides or involves the opposing party. It is'nt very humane as you're literally Shooting a man when he's drowning. If you cant help, just please do us a favour and shut your hole. Thank you.