Beneath the Surface

We all have that Childhood friend where we were like family and our parents know each other but over the course of time you just grow apart.

 I used to have one friend just like that. Lets call her S.
After entering secondary school, we were separated by different schools, social circles and just complete opposites. But we still meet once a year for whatever festivities. Its always the same thing we talk about, how are you hi and bye. Nothing more. There just seemed to be nothing we could find to say to each other. but as the years passed, our conversation topics seemed to limit itself gradually.

What's more she used to be the pretty one among the four of us.While we were still forming our facial features and all, you could say she was the swan amongst the ducklings. Everyone just accepted the fact, until puberty hit us and we slowly caught up with her.

And so, during those annual awkward meetings of ours, she noticed us growing up and changing too. And her attitude changed accordingly. Up till now, it kinda feels like the tables are turned, and it's quite obvious she doesnt like it. She's so different now. At times you could just see how obvious fakeness was used to mask courtesy. It almost feels hostile.

Talking things like that makes me mellow, especially when it happens to be your bestest childhood friend. To see each other grow apart into awkward strangers. I'm speechless. Im just going to cut it here then, I have another 2 more days to bear it with her and her boistrous  new friends. Sigh.

Odd Thoughts

This is usually considered weird. And well most people would agree that I am weird. But hey have you ever tried to picture your parents being gay?

I know I have. 

(Just so you know my parents arent. Or maybeI just have no knowledge about it)

My parents switched roles bringing me up since childhood. That is my dad did the cooking and cleaning while my mom brought back dinner. For a long time I thought this was how it was like in everyone elses family. That was until I entered primary school. 

Odd things Ive noticed is that,in being the "Martha" of the house, my dad has become more like a mom. While my mom is more like a dad thats not really involved in their kid's life. You would think theres a balance in everything especially parents. But for mine, they are just complete contrast betwwen them. One seems to care too much while the other too little. That includes asking me to finish food and the endless nagging. So well, I come from an unconventional family and sometimes my mind wonder into extreme places. Its become an inconvinience lately. 

Being the "martha" my dad hardly mingles with his once old buddies. And so when he met this one dude he clicked with they became best of friends. But maybe this is all jealousy on my part for all those years of having him to myself. Just the ways they hang out together so often its pretty disturbing. Not that Im a homophobic or anything, It just feels like this "friend" is trying to use my dad . And yea i fear for the worst. How can I not? 

Thats enought thinking for the night so Im off to bed. Nights lovelies. 

MidNight Rambles

So I've stayed up to write my society report just after Dance practice which was 11.00 pm. The exact time I swore to myself I would sleep immediately.I've been sleeping so much in school it's become hazardous.

So apart from my random observations, theres one thing I noticed thats very well undetected and mostly overlooked by people. Class. You see in this time without the aristocrats you would think we're living in an equality sorta thing. But no... We are far from that. Because now in this new age, how rich you are has become a main factor in the distingushing of social food chains.

I came across this one guy who's parents are professional, and among his friends they would say he's about a middle class sorta guy. BUT LOL. Why LOL? Thats cause all his "friends" are more like heirs to their parents companies and such. You would seriously think you're living in a Korean Drama, but honestly, this is pretty much common in Asia.

I mean who would have thought a little Island that I come from would have so many heirs. But then It be logical if the people who owned companies didnt reproduce right? You see these "Heirs" are so elite you can only find them in a certain part of the island. That is to say birds of a feather flock together,

One thing I dont get is that these elites and priviledged people only mix with their "kind". As if mixing with us normal humans would contaminate their blood. Its really uncalled for. For whatever they own in money does not have an equivalent to their mindsets. I mean you cant judge a persons character by their fortune right? Even in potential partners or love interest, the would only find interest in "Heirresses" as themselves. Feels more like they're together for fame and fortune.

Whats more, these people are mostly low profile, as in they dont go all out on social media or probably have most their accounts protected. Like seriously. I know you are rich and all and you need it for safety purposes, But still, I still find it absurd,

As for me and myself, yes it would be dreamlike to have a prince charming on a white noble steed. But to have someone so materialistic, superficial and calculative I think not. Most of the time they are cocky and just down right rude with a need of attitude adjustments. Why can't they just be like normal people ? Money doesnt give you the privilidge to be a complete ass. Sides the burden to have such a person would be too stressful for my free spirited nerves.

Lets Talk Acessories....

As you well know, I usually talk in metaphores. Although yes it gets confusing and annoying, theres a secret joy in it that makes me feel happy. Especially when I use a metaphore for something and only the person who truly gets it will understand. Its more like the "magic word" for me to know that Im actually talking to someone who gets me.



So about acessories.
Have you ever wondered why young adult male of about 16 year olds and above up to 25 get into a relationship? Well I have. And most of the time, hate to break it to you girls, it's just due to peer pressure.
You see, every guy is considered "manly" or "Macho" when they have a girl by their side. Thats what society feeds them. And in this growing process, most boys want to enter maturity and to look matured, they will just randomly get a girl. Like picking up sundries from the supermarket.

Im not trying to be a feminist here, but honestly, guys these days get into relationships just so they would fit into the crowd. Even before they are emotionally ready for commitment. In doing so, have you ever wondered about the after effects or how the girl would feel? No you didnt. No thanks to your idiotic raging hormones.

And the worst part, when A guy post pictures of him and his latest "Girl" people start congratulating him like its an achievement. And he would enjoy all the attention he gets from his other male friends by showing off his girl. Not only is it sad, it makes the girl look like a piece of meat. And Do you even have feelings for her at all? Its pretty cruel.

Conclusion: Guys , Girls, please, only get into a relationship with someone when you feel comfortable with them, you cant stop thinking about them or simply cause they mean a lot to you. Dont do it for the sake of fitting in or looking cool. In the end you would be the one at a greater loss. Relationships are made to be special, not like something you would have for your amusement and throw it away. Asks yourself this should you ever "think" you found the one : Will he'she be there for me even when I look / smell/ old and ugly or messy. Will they care for me when Im sick or sad or leave everything behind just to cheer me? Can I be myself with that someone without any masks or pretantious sophistication? Then there you have it, Your very own answer.