Thoughts like STARS that I cannot Fathom

'My Thoughts Are Like Stars I cannot fathom into constellations"


Every line of this sentence is so true, at times its just so hard to even put everything that I feel into words. So lately I've gotten myself into anoter mess again. This time is an invite to an event I have no interest in joining. But the thing is my so called best friend is hosting it. And I cant say no. Cause any answer other than yes would be raising suspision on our friendship or me waging war. I so don't need that drama as well.

My friend is inviting a few of us. Everyone knows everyone but the problem is we are not in the same social circle. Most of us don't even talk to each other on ordinary days and you want us to be in the same room for one whole day?! Sounds more like a nightmare to me.

And most of all, theres gona be a few admirers of my friend's there. No doubt she invited them on purpose, since she likes feeling inflated with attention. Its gona be so awkward for me, cause most of them never get a thing I say. Or either that the things I say arent funny enough for them. We just belong to different frequencies. I know it's her party and all , and it shouldn't be all about me as well. But honestly, has she ever considered my feelings? Does she even know how much Im dragging my feet there to fake a smile? I don't think so.......

I'm just always gona be the "cover up" friend, or the extra piece of Pizza that no one wants to eat cause they are just too full. Yup thats me, always the weird friend.

Funny People.

Is there just someone thats always there to spoil your day? I mean its not like they are doing it intentionally but the way they behave is just such a turn off. In my case, theres more than a few certain someones in my life which I really try to avoid. Cause meeting them for just one secont would kill my mood in an instant. This is what i call "Killjoys " Or rather "Killer of Joys"

No offence to anyone reading this but to be honest, I find the teenage girls these days a bit of a pain. And yes they are the ones Im refferring to as "Funny People" .
Theres a few types of the annoying ones that I feel I really have to categorise them.

1. The "Im miss popular, everyone look at me Me MEEEE"
2. The "Ms Stalker" : They want to know what you are doing, whom you are talking to , where you are right to the final detail, which creeps the shit out of me.

3. The " Popular wannabe " : They go round chatting with every guy in the room using themselves as bait and copying every other person's personality. Sorry but it's disgusting.

4.The "PDA" : She goes round being all touchy with guys not just one but a few.

5. The Loud mouth : They go round screaming and laughing loudly on purpose just to get everyone's attention. Like seriously?

6. The Fake : She goes round being all nice and angelic infornt of everyone. But once something goes wrong all the tables are turned, and you seem like the bad guy. They somehow manage to get scot free.

I myself am a girl although it pains me to write all this, I just can't see this happening anymore. Its just such an eye sore. And for all the guys out there reading this , NOT all girls are like that. There are still some pretty nice ones out there so dont judge them base on what I mentioned. These are just one of the few untollerable ones I came across.

Mud Blood

Mudblood : Used to discribe a mixture of a race or species. In this case, Im referring to the mix race of humans.If you are a Potter head (Harry Potter fan) Im sorry to dissapoint you but no, Im not talking about anything to do with it.
So recently, or rather in this weird generation of mine, everyone seems to want a mixed marriage. All just for the sake of having so called "Mud blood" babies. According to them, they say that these babies look prettier, or more beautiful due to their mixed genes bla bla bla bla. Not to go deep into Biology or anything. Believe me, Im not a very huge fan of it either.

I myself am one of those "mud blood" babies, namely the Eurasian Heritage, where East meets West. But to be honest, after seeing a few of my fellow Eurasians, or mixed friends, we arent really all that awesome as people make us to be. In truth we are just all plain ordinary human beings with hopes and dreams.Besides just cause we are Eurasian doesnt make us all look good. I mean come on, we are human too right? I feel bad for saying this after having witness a few times myself.

What ever happened to the Pure Races, like for instance the Pure Koreans? Pure Chinese ? Pure Indian? Japanese, British, and so on. I know its normal to feel dissatisfied with what we have, but isn't what our differences that makes us who we are? If all we want to do is look like someone else, then I would say we are denying our identiy.

It doesnt matter if we are different. Its what makes us special. And we of all peoples should embrace that responsiblity to uphold it.

The ONE

How do we know when we've found "the one" Well most people usually do this by trial and error. But do we really have to go through all the pain of falling ,and hurting just to find that special someone ? I always imagined it would be fun to get in a relationship, find out what it's like and all, but after awhile it just sorta changed.
I guess my preception on things changed while the world evovled. I've never really been in a relationship, but after seeing my friends go through it I felt it's beter to just wait. Why should I go out looking for love and get myself hurt for nothing? This is where my grandpa's advice came in : Just sit your ass down and calm your tits. Or in a more biblical sense : Be still and know that I am God (Psalms 46 :10) .

It's better to wait and let God send the right person to me. After He did promise that there would be someone out there thats just perfectly made for me. So why do I have to worry? This is where I realised, even in the simple things in life, We walk by faith not by sight. And God is the Master mind of everything else.

wEIRDNESS Comes with Age

We used to think how amazing it would be to be perfect like the celebs in Hollywood. But as the years went by, everything just changes. And perfect is no longer what perfect seems. So what on earth is this thing called "perfect" ?

  In a land far far away, I used to be a perfectionist, wanting everything to be planned right to every detail. Yes its scary I know. Thank God Im not like that anymore though. I guess people change as the grow and mature .

Most people would call me random, crazy, or just simply weird. I was never like that until I got so sick of perfect. Why do we have to be perfect anyway? Whats the point? You're gona be left with a normal, boring predicted life. Most people would say they want their life to be like from a romance novel. But seriously? Do you really want your life to be that predictable? What would happen to the excitement and suspense?

 We only live once, and in my opinion, we should live it to the fullest no matter how crazy it is. Be weird and be yourself, one day you might even find your own weird twin too :P