Thoughts like STARS that I cannot Fathom

'My Thoughts Are Like Stars I cannot fathom into constellations"


Every line of this sentence is so true, at times its just so hard to even put everything that I feel into words. So lately I've gotten myself into anoter mess again. This time is an invite to an event I have no interest in joining. But the thing is my so called best friend is hosting it. And I cant say no. Cause any answer other than yes would be raising suspision on our friendship or me waging war. I so don't need that drama as well.

My friend is inviting a few of us. Everyone knows everyone but the problem is we are not in the same social circle. Most of us don't even talk to each other on ordinary days and you want us to be in the same room for one whole day?! Sounds more like a nightmare to me.

And most of all, theres gona be a few admirers of my friend's there. No doubt she invited them on purpose, since she likes feeling inflated with attention. Its gona be so awkward for me, cause most of them never get a thing I say. Or either that the things I say arent funny enough for them. We just belong to different frequencies. I know it's her party and all , and it shouldn't be all about me as well. But honestly, has she ever considered my feelings? Does she even know how much Im dragging my feet there to fake a smile? I don't think so.......

I'm just always gona be the "cover up" friend, or the extra piece of Pizza that no one wants to eat cause they are just too full. Yup thats me, always the weird friend.