Beneath the Surface

We all have that Childhood friend where we were like family and our parents know each other but over the course of time you just grow apart.

 I used to have one friend just like that. Lets call her S.
After entering secondary school, we were separated by different schools, social circles and just complete opposites. But we still meet once a year for whatever festivities. Its always the same thing we talk about, how are you hi and bye. Nothing more. There just seemed to be nothing we could find to say to each other. but as the years passed, our conversation topics seemed to limit itself gradually.

What's more she used to be the pretty one among the four of us.While we were still forming our facial features and all, you could say she was the swan amongst the ducklings. Everyone just accepted the fact, until puberty hit us and we slowly caught up with her.

And so, during those annual awkward meetings of ours, she noticed us growing up and changing too. And her attitude changed accordingly. Up till now, it kinda feels like the tables are turned, and it's quite obvious she doesnt like it. She's so different now. At times you could just see how obvious fakeness was used to mask courtesy. It almost feels hostile.

Talking things like that makes me mellow, especially when it happens to be your bestest childhood friend. To see each other grow apart into awkward strangers. I'm speechless. Im just going to cut it here then, I have another 2 more days to bear it with her and her boistrous  new friends. Sigh.