The Secrets We Keep.

Almost everyone of us dreamed of getting the limelight. No matter how hard you try to deny it, you have secretly schemed, hoped whatever you wanna call it.  Its purely normal to want to get noticed. I know many of my friends love getting noticed, some of them live just for the fame.

But after years of heart breaks and dissapointments, I find that Im the girl thats secretly hoping to be noticed namely by her crush. Unfortunately, my life isnt much of a fairy tale and I never get noticed by my crush. Or maybe it's cause I conseal it so well. But time and again I keep asking myself, until when will I be this girl?

I mean it's only a crush right? And how long will it last? Afterall after awhile this will only be a passing feeling...... right?

But still, it hurts..... I am afterall only human..... To see him and secretly dreaming for that happily ever after HAH! more like a joke it'll ever be. Cause deep down, I know he'll never be mine and we can never be together cause he likes someone else.

Sometimes, I get the feeling that I'm not good enough for him, or Im just beneath him to even talk to him. Thats how he makes me feel. Although I feel nervous and awkward around him I get annoyed at how he makes me feel about myself. So thats called mixed feelings huh?
I guess its part of the growing pains. Gosh I hate this so much. When will the nightmare end? I guess no one knows .......